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Wednesday, March 7th, 2007
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| Time: | 8:04 pm. |
| Mood: |  calm. | | Music: | interpol - NYC. |
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There's more to life than snorting white powder up your nose and mixing pills with alcohol.
Your girlfriend will come home from a late night party at a trendy Manhattan night club, and find you in the bathtub of your apartment. This leads to a 911 call, and you'll obviously land in the hospital (may I add that you'll be handcuffed to the hospital bed, for you tried punching one of the EMT's). You will have to drink charcoal, and then the nurses will neglect you and forget that the purpose for consuming the charcoal is to flush out your system. You will vomit all over yourself, and begin shaking helplessly while you slowly fade into a comatose. Your life will flash before your eyes, and the next thing you know, you'll wake up in a white room, which happens to be the psychiatric division of the hospital.
I know what all that's like. It's a nightmare, and abusing illegal drugs to escape the realities of true life is pathetic.
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Friday, October 13th, 2006
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| Time: | 11:36 am. |
| Mood: |  cheerful. | | Music: | new order - someone like you. |
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So, I was supposed to go back to Buffalo this weekend to attend my little brother and sister's baptism, but my flight was cancelled, on a count of the crazy ass snow. Here in NYC it's nice out and it's just hard to believe that only a short distance away there's almost two feet of snow. Haha. That sucks though.
I'm really bored. I want some cereal, but there is none. I might go out for breakfast alone in a little while. Maybe I'll make my way into Manhattan.
I hope Shannon ends up coming back to the city. Her and Russell are stranded in Rochester.
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Wednesday, October 4th, 2006
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| Time: | 2:44 am. |
| Music: | Silence.. |
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I feel like you're so far out of my reach, pretty girl. You were mine once, now you're not. I hope you know how much I think about you. I've been staying up all hours of the night, replaying the memories in my head, and I'm trying to figure out why I was stupid enough to let you go. You have a part of me that I feel like I can't ever get back. I am an asshole. I didn't treat you the way you deserved to be treated. I was selfish, and it's upsetting that I'm finally coming to terms with my problems. It's too late now. Never will I be able to wake up in the comfort of your arms. And never again will I be able to feel you breathing on my neck, nor will I be able to see that pretty smile that always made me melt.
Sometimes I feel like I can still smell your scent. It's haunting me. It makes my stomach turn and my head spin.
I love you. With all of my heart.
I've never felt so empty, and so unhopeful in my entire life. I'm not living the life that I want. It wasn't supposed to be this way.
I am no longer invincible. I got what I deserved. Heartbreak.
And it's also pathetic that I'm discussing my problems on livejournal. I feel like if I explained my situation to anyone, they'd call me self-centered, and obsessed. Maybe I am obsessed. And crazy.
I wish the whole memory erasing thing from Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind was real. I'd get that procedure done in a heartbeat.
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| Time: | 12:40 am. |
| Mood: |  drained. | | Music: | elliott smith - everything reminds me of her. |
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"I never really had a problem because of leaving,
But everything reminds me of her this evening.
So if I seem a little out of it, sorry...
But why should I lie?
Everything reminds me of her.
The spin of the earth impaled a silhouette of the sun on the steeple
And I got to hear the same sermon all the time now from you people
Why are you staring into outer space, crying?
Just because you came across it, and lost it."
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Wednesday, August 16th, 2006
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| Time: | 11:56 pm. |
| Mood: |  aggravated. | | Music: | DJ Icey. |
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Alot has happened, fortunately.
I'm dating Russell's 23-year-old sister. And I found a place to live in Brooklyn.
I leave on Tuesday. Wish me luck.
Love,
Mary
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| Subject: | Shitt. |
| Time: | 7:51 am. |
| Mood: |  content. | | Music: | pixies - where is my mind. |
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Today is my last day of High School, forever. I'm celebrating this accomplishment by not attending. Instead, I'll clean up my room and get this dying tree out in my backyard.
If I get accepted into Hunter's Dorming, then I'll be leaving August 25th for the big apple. If I don't get the dorming, then I'll be leaving even earlier. I'm anxious, but very, very ready.
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| Subject: | School |
| Time: | 11:38 pm. |
| Mood: | chipper. | | Music: | Tegan and Sara - Don't Confess. |
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High School is almost done. Approximately six more weeks. I can't wait until I finally move to NYC in August. That will be the absolute best day of my life. I'm sure settling in will be difficult, but it'll be worth the frustration.
Work is alright. Besides the fact that I'm growing sick and tired of the paper and plastic.
You know what's funny? I used to look like a boy.
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Saturday, April 22nd, 2006
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| Time: | 3:56 pm. |
| Mood: |  satisfied. | | Music: | Ladytron - Seventeen. |
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NYC was alot of fun. I got my Immunization Form done yesterday, and I faxed it on over to Hunter.
I can't wait to live in Manhattan in August. It will be great fun.
I just queefed for Shannon.
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| Subject: | Goodness. |
| Time: | 9:03 pm. |
| Mood: | drained. | | Music: | James Lavelle - Breakin' On The Streets. |
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The past couple of weeks have been rather exciting. I like being a big sister.
My sister Jaime came home from Vegas with her new man for a couple of days. I love them both.
I love wine.
I love girls.
I love Tegan And Sara.
Shannon and I aren't dating but we're still tight. I like it.
On Thursday I'm leaving for NYC for a week. I can't wait.
Here's a picture of the twins (Hunter, and Brooke) and then my older sisters (Jaime and Kate)
Of course everyone looks normal but me and floppy Brooke. I look like I just blew fifteen lines of cocaine.
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| Subject: | Oh. |
| Time: | 7:42 pm. |
| Mood: | cheerful. | | Music: | Elliott Smith - Fond Farewell. |
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Hockey is officially over. Today was my last game. Ever.
I'm going to NYC April 13-19 to visit Russell. It's going to be exciting.
Less then three months of high school left. Yes.
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Saturday, March 4th, 2006
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| Time: | 9:03 pm. |
| Mood: |  bored. | | Music: | mogwai - take me somewhere nice. |
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I'm such a lesbian. I love everything about girls.
So I'm a big sister. My stepmom has the twins on Tuesday night. Their names are Hunter and Brooke. I think that the names are rather awkward.
I'm going to save these kids from misery. I'm going to show them that it's okay to be different, and it's okay to be black. Louise will not brainwash these kids.
I have to work for five and a half hours tomorrow. I'm not dreading it.
I love Shannon. I've never loved anyone as much as I love her. She's so beautiful.
I can't wait until graduation.
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Sunday, February 26th, 2006
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I got into Hunter College in NYC. I'm so out of here. I can't wait.
Hopefully I'll be accepted into residence halls for students. If not, then Russell and I will be getting an apartment.
Who's excited for June to come?
High School has become such a joke.
Shannon's pretty fucking hott as well.
I'm getting my braces off on Thursday.
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Saturday, February 4th, 2006
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| Time: | 9:08 pm. |
| Mood: |  rejuvenated. | | Music: | the murmurs - genius. |
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Being a vegetarian makes me feel fresh.
Leisha Hailey is extremely attractive.
I'm such a lesbian.
Shannon's 18th birthday is on Thursday.
We're going to get tattoos next weekend. Hopefully.
I miss Russell.
I found my graphing calculator.
I still haven't heard from Hunter yet.
Also, I believe that I just wrote the most amazing paper of my life. It's for my Law and Government class.
Should gay marriage be legalized? What’s wrong with two people of the same sex being in love? Aren’t they human beings too? According to CNN.com, more than half of all people in the United States oppose gay marriage, even though three fourths are otherwise supportive of gay rights. This means that many of the same people who are in favor of gay rights oppose gays on this one issue. But why? According to the bible, gay relationships are immoral. So what? The bible has absolutely no standing in American law. Whatever happened to the separation between church and state?
It’s bad enough to have a mass population of homophobes among the United States, but now we have to worry about another close-minded conservative, George W. Bush. On February 25, 2004, he called for an amendment that would put a ban on same sex marriage. He strongly believes that marriage is strictly reserved for a man and a woman. Several democrats condemned George W. Bush’s discriminative comments, and are truly disgusted by his views. Winnie Stachelberg, the political director of the Human Rights Campaign stated, "We are very disappointed that the president is trying to further codify discrimination into law". The Human Rights Campaign is the nation’s largest gay rights group.
Several believe that same sex marriage issue should be put into the hands of the states. A number of states have already passed laws forbidding gays from marrying or barring the recognition of a same-sex marriage performed in another state. The federal government's 1996 Defense of Marriage Act affirms that states are not required to recognize a same-sex marriage performed in another state. Honestly though, what’s all the fuss about? Why are so many people opposed to same sex marriages? It has been proven that the true reason as to why so many people are opposed to same sex marriages is simply because they’re uncomfortable with the idea. Conservatives also worry that homosexuals will “recruit”. In other words, they believe that gay people recruit straight people to become gay. The miseducated need to pick their heads up and realize that we’re all human beings and it’s wrong for gay individuals to be punished for their sexuality. I think it’s absolutely ludicrous that gays are being mistreated simply because they prefer to be romantically involved with someone of the same sex. Being gay is not a choice. Whoever thinks that you can choose your sexual orientation is dead wrong. It’s amusing to see all the programs on television that advertise “straight camps”. Trying to turn a gay person straight is like trying to teach a dog physics. It’s NOT possible. The attempts made by psychologists, counselors and religious therapy and support groups to change sexual orientation have all failed, terribly.
It’s so frustrating when you’ve come to the realization that the country you live in is full of oppressive conservatives who don’t take the feelings of others into consideration. Whether a person is gay or straight shouldn’t affect their stance in society. It is absolutely no one’s business who somebody decides to fall in love with. Homosexuals are certainly entitled to the same rights’ to marriage as heterosexuals. Whoever decided that marriage was “traditional” and strictly for “a man and a woman” should be hit in the face. This isn’t the 1950s anymore. We’re well into the millennium and it’s time that homosexuals be given the same rights as heterosexuals. It’s time for the traditionalists to take a step back and realize that our country is diverse in more ways than one. Acceptance is the first step.
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Saturday, January 28th, 2006
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| Time: | 4:00 am. |
| Mood: |  lazy. | | Music: | the 11 o'clock news. |
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I'm sitting here with my lady. She's so hott.
In other news, I got accepted into Purchase and Buff State.
Hopefully Hunter will send me something soon.
Livejournal is really stupid.
I love my woman.
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Wednesday, January 18th, 2006
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| Time: | 3:34 am. |
| Mood: |  Frothy Vagina. | | Music: | Shannon's Aunt. |
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twat is frothing with a delicious tasting foam
twat is interesting because it's the only word know applying to a part of the sexual anatomy that doesn't have another meaning
twat is a relatively unoffensive word meaning fool
twat is cumming
twat is spamming me on the email addy i registered to totl
twat is troy's mother
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Saturday, January 14th, 2006
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OMG. Lately I've been so disgusted with my body. So I showered and I had a camera. And I was like "oh boy wouldn't it be cool to have pictures of me on here?" So listen guys, I almost didn't do this, but I finally worked up the courage to post these recent pictures. I think I look okay. But maybe I need to lose a little weight.
( Hot Mary in Red )
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Sunday, December 25th, 2005
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| Time: | 5:51 pm. |
| Mood: |  VAGINA. | | Music: | jurassic 5 - the game. |
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Chardonnay and Strap-Ons.
What more could a lesbian ask for?!
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Tuesday, December 6th, 2005
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| Subject: | Ah. |
| Time: | 9:24 pm. |
| Mood: |  depressed. | | Music: | death cab for cutie - we laugh indoors. |
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The wake was so sad. I hugged Katie's mom. I was hysterical last night after I got home. When I keep myself busy it's hard to remind myself that someone I know has passed away. But when I sit around, I think way too much, and it gets me really upset. Katie was way too young. It just feels like it shouldn't have been her time.
After the wake Lauren Tober, Mister Stu, Lisa Crapsi, Rissa and I went to Flappy's and ate. I think that cheered all of us up a little bit.
Thanks again Rissa for arranging all that out so I could go to the wake.
Katie donated some of her organs. It's nice that she'll be saving others' lives.
I hope she's in a better place.
Sigh.
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Saturday, December 3rd, 2005
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It's really weird when someone you know just dies. It scares the shit out of me.
I knew Katie through Rissa and what not. I guess she was in this horrible car accident, and her injuries were life threatening. Shit sucks.
Rest In Peace Katie Magle.
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